Recently in June, I realized something.
Something I should've and would've liked to have realized a lot sooner.
But I know everything has it's time and place,
so I'm just grateful it's happened :)
For the longest part, since Aug 2010,
I've been living life in a blur,
sweeping the dust under the rug
& living for all the temporary highs
living life day to day.
For most part of it, I must admit, I was successful.
For the least, it snowballed to whatever I am today.
I won't say I'm unhappy,
but I can't tell you I'm happy either.
I mean I have no reason to be unhappy 'cause
I've got the love of my life,
I'm living my dream,
I have a wonderful family who supports me,
& the bestest of friends anyone could ever ask for.
I know I'm blessed, I know I'm lucky.
I pretty much get everything I want,
but yet, I feel bereft,
most of the time I'm displeased,
& pretty much all of the time, morose.
I've decided that I don't want to live life the way I have for the past almost 5 years,
but to live a life, hopefully a fulfilling one, where I learn to enjoy the journey.
So this from here on, shall be my journey, to remind myself why I even started.
& as of today the 5th of July,
I'll make a promise to myself.
The promise to sort life out,
to learn to deal with the unanswered questions,
to accept the differences, to accept the fact that not everyone thinks like me,
to embrace whatever life throws at me w open arms and an open heart
& to never stop this train no matter how tough life gets..
xoxo,
Simaling
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